This is hard!!

So here we are at the close of day 3 and this is hard!!  We are hanging in there!  Please keep the prayer coming.  Lydia has transitioned really well.  She has an amazing disposition and babbles and sings constantly in Lingala.  We have no idea what she's saying but she doesn't seem to mind.  She does wake up in the night with nightmares so we are trying to comfort her and she goes back to sleep pretty quickly.  Daniel is a little more challenging because he is older with a more difficult history.  He was severely malnourished and has some developmental delays but he is talking and interacts pretty well.  He calls Lydia Di (Dikiefu)  and looks out for her for the most part.  He is extremely bonded to Jay and acts angry at times with me. He really doesn't want much to do with me.  I have read that this happens frequently with toddlers because their primary caregivers have been women that to them have abandoned them.  It doesn't make it any easier though, because I don't feel as connected to him and there is a measure of guilt that comes with that.  We are busy all the time because we have not been able to establish a routine yet. It is very difficult to do this when you don't have the credibility of the months and years before now.  We practically have to hold Daniel down to get him to go to sleep at night but when he falls asleep it is for 12-14 hours.  I know we'll figure it all out, but it seems so difficult right now.  I do miss my old life! ;-)  I am trying to remember what God called me to in the light, to give me strength in the dark. Thank you to all of you for your support!  I don't have time to post pics tonight but will try to tomorrow.  We have some good ones!  They experienced going outside for the first time today in their winter jackets.  They were all smiles!  I'm going to get ready for bed and get ready for a new day tomorrow!